life sucks but it's okay

 hello fellow scholars,

as i write this, i am sitting in english language with my bestie J. we have not clocked in at the locked in factory i fear. it's friday of the second last week of term 1, and i am so tired of school. isn't it crazy that we are basically 1/3 through the way of year 12???? so surreal... i remember year 7 like it was yesterday (not really). i'm very scared for the future!!!

i'm excited to finally be leaving high school, but also so so terrified. i won't have a structured routine, likely not talk to a lot of my friends ever again, and have to start UNIVERSITY...

i really want to get into my radiography course at rmit. it's kind of a dream!! (romanticising it to convince myself i love it). but actually, it does interest me a lot but i'm scared i'm not gonna like it when i actually do it. ugh.

next week is community focus day, and the theme for year 12s is first letter of your name. i'm dressing up as sasha braus from attack on titan!! i love her so much. it's kinda cringe though because anime character... but at least i'm doing it with my friends C and A. also, i have to help with planning for cfd and there are very imcompetent people on the team. i am very sick of them. ughhhhhhhh men.

next period is my free, and i have two music lessons; oboe and singing. i did not practice and i am sooo scared i don't want to do it pls.

not much more to say tbh i just don't want to do englang. byeee.


love, from your favourite scholar,

sue anne 💕

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